Living outside the Box

A few days ago I took a picture and posted it on my FB wall and on IG of a Bald Eagle sitting in a land fill site. Now, that was not the only one I saw. In fact, I counted at least 30 of them both young and mature ones. It is sad really, that this majestic bird of  prey would be sitting amongst refuse looking for its next meal.  I love seeing nature in the habitat that it was created to be in. Such as this eagle with wings spread in the air riding the hot air currents both enjoying what is was meant to be and searching for its next meal. Instead, 30 birds of prey were sitting there either on heaps of trash or a jutted rock peaking out from the surface of the ground almost begging for a meal. The white plumes that I am used to seeing were marred with dirt; almost brownish white. How sad! In reality these birds are living outside the box.
It made me wonder how many times that my duties as a husband and father stopped short of being what it is supposed to be. By nature I am a selfish person. I am short tempered and can be cynical. That in itself is a cause for alarm because I know what my family needs from me. My wife needs a strong, loving, caring and understanding man who is aware of her needs even when she does not tell me. My children need a role model that will reflect what a father really is. Loving, caring, nurturing, yet can be stern when needs to be.
You see, that is who I am really supposed to be - not that selfish, cynical person I grew up as.  If I chose to sit in the land fill and beg for my existence then I will be a miserable, uncaring, ungrateful, unloving,  unforgiving person.
I know for a fact that is not who God made me to be. To function at  the capacity that makes me live life to the fullest I need to be caring, thankful, grateful loving, understanding and approachable. I have to work hard at this - my wife will be the first to tell you that. When I do live this life, with my wings spread apart and catching the heat pockets and soaring high in the sky, my life functions as it should be as a husband and father. It is then and only then,  I know that I am functioning how I know I am made to be.
Stop for a moment and think about it:  Are you living, enjoying life with your wings spread open? Are you existing, sitting in the landfill knowing that you ought to be elsewhere?

Migwetch  and Baamaapii